Thursday, September 15, 2016

New Rule: Why The Fuck Not Me?


Why the fuck not me? is my new motto.

This motto is a result of reflecting on my life recently. A few, supportive people have told me that I need to step up my game - a reminder to get your shit together if you want to achieve your dreams.

And I am getting my shit together in all aspects of my life. I am working towards my business degree, which will help me achieve my dream of owning a bar. I am balancing my work life (nursing) and keeping up with my active daughters. Since my last narcissistic encounter, I haven't even thought about dating. Last, but not least, I am addressing the fact that I am not happy with my body - an issue with which most women can relate. I am amazing regardless of my weight but want to make some healthy positive changes in my life. And I have a kick ass pair of jeans that I want to fit into again.

Learning to rock my confidence is my personal work in progress. Hence, my new motto - why the fuck not me?  My last relationship epically failed and resulted in self esteem issues that I am still conquering. But I know that I am beautiful inside and out, and that I have a lot to bring to the table.

There is a double standard when it comes to women pursuing men. I read Facebook posts about how the right man will chase you, that men don't like to be chased, and how dating is a game. While I am sure there is truth in those statements, I think that men have some of the same insecurities that women have. Who cares who does the chasing? I give more props to the person who finds their balls (just because I have a vagina doesn't mean I can't find my balls) and says, "Hey, I want to know more about you." The very qualities that I seek in someone are the qualities that I am afraid of in myself.

Personal confidence turns heads. I feel bold and capable, so it is time to rock my confidence. I will pursue what and whom I want. I will rock this college degree; I will fit into those jeans again. I will put myself out there and say, "Hey, I want to know more about you" to the guy who sparks my interest.

Here's to being bold and finding my balls again! Here's to why the fuck not me?!

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